What to do what to do....

Since the begining of the year when I first started thinking about WLS I have had set in my mind the lap band. So that is all I have researched, never did it cross my mind to even consider the gastric by pass, never until today.
We went to a friends party today & I mentioned to her I was in the process of getting banded soon. She told me about her sister in law whom I know, and even though I had noticed she (the sil) had lost a lot of weight it didn't even cross my mind that she had had any surgery done. I come to find out she had the gastric done. She has lost a lot of weight and as a matter of fact just recently had a baby & right after the baby she was able to loose all the weight.
So now that I know someone personaly that has had it done I am interested in finding out more about it and seeing if that is for me. Since all I have been researching is the lap band that is mostly all I haqve seen as far as blogs & vlogs.
Has anyone had the bypass?
And the ones with the band... what made you decide to do the band instead of the bypass?
I really need some imput please.

Good news on the new doctor!

So you have probably heard about Beverly Hills Physicians for the lapband. Atleast here in So Cali it's on all the radios. I went to their website and was reading about the different physicians they have, so I went on lapbandtalk.com and searched for a couple of them, and on one of them Dr. Feiz there's quite a few ppl that have gone thru him, even though theres also one patient who ended up having to have taken it out due to an infection, she still raves about how great he is. I am in the process of reading all of her blogs but am not done yet, as far as I know she was able to get it back a couple of months after that & she is doing great. I am not scared about that happening kuz that is something that can happen to anyone and stuff. I have read a lot of great reviews about him.
So I called his private practicem even though thru Beverly Hills I would only have to drive like 15 minuteds to theirOxnard facility, I would rather make the 2 hrs drive to Beverly Hills and see him at his private practice.
SO the good news is that with them I don't have to pay any out of pocket! YAY!!!
The only set back will be the drive but hey I would drive even farter to not have to pay all that money that I would of had too with this other doc.
Since I have already had everything done other than the dietician I am hoping that this goes by fast and that I am able to be a June bander :).
On Friday I have my dietician consultation, and I already signed the release form to have my file transferd to them.
I am so excited!

Thank you all for the prayers!

So frustrated!!!!

Aghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
So after all the test I've had already, all the clearences I've gotten. I was really hoping for a June surgery, and today I find out that I actually need $3,900 before the surgery date not $3,000. It was bad enough I was stressing over the 3 grand, and now it's almost 1 more. That right there is for the after care, and it must be payed upfront. AND not only that but I still have to pay a copayment of like $3000, so all in all I need $7,900 to do it. I know some ppl have actually paid upfront all of it. But I we don't have that money. So all my dreams and hopes are slowly fading away. I have been taking so much time off work to do all these test, for a surgery I might not have any more. Loosing all thos hours of work, to not be able to get it done because I don't have the money for it. That's just not right. :(

I have been online all evening researching another doctor about 2 hrs away from where I live, I will be calling his office tomorrow to see what my copay or other charges would be with him. Hopefully it is way less and he is able to get all my files from the other doc and we can go thru him.

So frustrated!!!
Pleasew say a lil prayer for me that things work out at this new office.

Thank you all!

May 22, 2010

And this is me, same dress, hmmm I think about the same weight. But 2 1/2 years later, I should of been able to have lost some weight in those almost 3 yrs. But this was the last time I wore that dress, kuz this time I am going to loose weight and come next year, when I am a nina again I will be able to wear a nice dress. One that I will be able to buy from a store and NOT have to have made for me.

2007

Sorry I triued posting these pictures on my last blog, but it wouldn't let me.

This picture was taken Oct 2007.

YAY!!! So over the weekend I was blessed with more followers :)
Thank you all!!!

So this past weekend the hubby and I attended a X5 for our godaughter Jenny. We baptized her when she was 3 yrs old, as a matter of fact we baptized her and her youngest sister Jazmin that day. Since then we have been the godparents for her oldest sister Vanessa for her first communion 2 yrs ago, and next year we will be the ninos for her 3rd sister Cindy's first communion. We were her padrinos de Honor for her X5 this weekend, and next year we will be for Cindy and the year after for Jamzin. Their mother got together with this one guys who has a 5 yr old son, whom we baptized a few weeks ago. So we are ninos to all 5 of them now.

Ok so now you are probably like what does all thgis have to do with anything right hehe.

Ok well here it goes, all these years, all these times we've been their godparents every single time, I have been the big nina. ok ok I will say it, the fat nina :( Next October will be Cindy's X5 my goal is to be the skinny nina this time.

Well first off before that next May is my son's 1st Communion and I do hope I get to be the skinny mom for that too.

When I say all these years I've been the fat nina I so mean it. Example 3 years ago hubby & I came out on his cousins wedding and I wore a gold dress...
Fast forward to 3 yrs later (this X5 I'm talking about) and well being that the economy sucks at the moment I did not buy me a new dress for this occasion. I wore the same dress I did 3 years ago, and yes it fit me. So as you can see these last 3 years I've still been the fat nina!

It totally sucks!!!

I really do hope I get the band soon, I have been able to loose weight on my won all these years, but I can never keep it off. i gain what ever I lost and then some back.

Thank you Drazil!!

I am so excited :) As of now I have 11 followers YAY!!! A big thank you to Drazil! She posted my link on her blog :) Thank you so much!

I am following a lot of people, but still haven't been able to read all of them as I am going one by one and reading from their first post to the most recent one :)...

So please do not think I am not even going to your pages, I will get there soon. Trust me I am SO interested in reading all of your guys stories and folowwing all of your journeys.

BYOC

So after reading thru some blogs, not done with all of them yet. I see that on Friday's there's some questions asked for us to answer. So I just copyed them from another blog and here are my answers. (I do hope this is how it works, and not that O have to wait to be invited to join on this BYOC group)


1. If you had 3 wishes what would they be and why? (you can't wish for more wishes or money!)
1~ To be able to go back to last year when I had lost 47 lbs, so I could of done all that was possible to keep them off and NOT let them sneak back to me.
2~ To have started this lapband process a few years ago so I could be at my goal weight now.
3~ To have planed a better future years ago, and be able to have been homeowners now.


2. If you had all the money in the world and perfect circumstances - how many children would you have and what sex?

Right now we have 1 boy & 1 girl, if we were set money wise I would love to have 1 more of each.


3. Have you ever faked it? (Because I need to laugh...feel free to skip this one if it's too personal.)

nopes I am either in the mood and do it, or not in the mood and don't do it.


4. What movie character do you think you look like?

not a movie character but I have been told that I kinda resemble a mexican singer Jenni Rivera, when I had mi hair colored a shade of brown.


5. Repeat question. Which blog or comment spoke to you or stuck with you this week and why?
Barbara from My New Life Rules and her post::: SABOTAGE Why do we do this to ourselfs.

Food... the thing that should nourish us, becomes more of an instrument to console us, when we are happy, sad, stressed.. or whatever emotion we are not prepared to handle in life

That paragraph right there really got to me, beacause that is how I am, Food is my companion, as much as I say every morning, this will be the day that FOOD will NOT control me, and trust me I really do believe it every morning, but then I am no longer in control, my appetite takes control. I am so ready to change I really really do want to, and I will.

Sleep Study

So last night I had my sleep study done. I got to the clinic at 9:30pm, the technician was still working on his 9pm patient. So after he si done with him he goes to my room, which by the way was a very nice room. He explains to me how he's gonna put all kinds of wires on me & stuff. So he starts wiring me up, SO many wires on my head, a couple on my legs, and some on my collar bone. Seriously how I am supposed to sleep with all those wires on me? I really thought I was not going to be able to sleep.
Boy was I wrong hehe! I sure did sleep, I did wake up a lil after I had gone to sleep, as I do most night, out of breath and practically choking. BUT I guess it's not sleep apnea, kuz they never put the mask on me.
Next I have a mandatory Pre operative class on June 2, then the dietician on June 8, sleep study follow up June 29 and finally a meeting with my surgeon on July 1, and hopefully my surgery on July 5 or soon after.
I was hoping to get banded by the middle of June but as you can see my appointments are still far away :(

1st blog I completed reading

So I have this other blog fernandezmanzo.blogspot.com that I started a couple of years ago where I talk about some legal problems hubby & I were going thru. On that blog I started folowing people but never really went back to their begining to read from day one of they're blogs, therefor I reallyt didn't know much about them.
So I have decided that here I will take it a day at a time, a blog at a time, one by one and start from day 1 of theyre journey and read all about each and everyone of them here.
Even thouhg I have been adding a lot, I still haven't read the recent posts kuz I have been buzzy catching up on one by one.
So as of today I have read all of Jessica's story at: http://jaeworldizin.blogspot.com/

My next one will be her best friend Mary at :http://maryannchange.blogspot.com/

So soon enough I will have read the whole journey of everyone here. I do hope to leran a lot from each and everyone of you!

Test test and more tesr

I attended a mandatory class today for the surgery, the nurse talked to us about all the complications that could happen both with the lap band & the gastric, she talked about the gas, getting stuck, the band slipping & stuff, very informative.
There was this one girl there that had the band done a couple of years ago, but for some reason it didn't work on her. So she's getting the bypass done now.... that gets me scared. What if I am one of the ones that the band just doesn't work for me??? Very very scary.
After that I had my pshyc evaluation, then after that I had the sleep counsultation. Based on all the questions and stuff from there the doc thinks I have sleep apnea. So I will be having a sleep test done on Tues eve. I have to be there at 9:30pm and spend the night till about 6am the next day. We will see how that goes. I doubt I will be able to sleep knowing I am being watched hehe!
So now all I need is that sleeo study test, then I see the dietician on June 8, and I should be set from there. Oh one major thing hehe I still need to come up with my copayment which is $3,000 so once I have that too I will be ready.

On a roll...

Kids & I are doing great in trying to get healthy :) Today we decided that yes we can still go to Mc Donalds, BUT we will NOT have hamburgers nor fries. We will have salads :). I had told them that since tomorrow is Mother's day and it's my day so I get to choose were we go out to eat, that I choose Chuck E Cheeses, since I am a mother due to the fact that they were born. Therefor we are celebrating all of us kuz without them I wouldn't be a mom :)

So my son Julian says "But pizza makes us fat" Good boy :)
So I said "That's why we are having Salad"
They loved the idea.

On to other notes, my friend Leslie whom I met thru our other blogs is now following me here :) I just yesterday made it known that I have this other blog, so finally I get to write so other people can read me :) YAY!! I wasn't sure if I would make it known that I was here or even follow people. But I decided to follow so I can also be followed and thus this way get support from all my new friends I will be making, and the ones I already have.

Leslie gave me an idea, well ok I am stealing 2 ideas from her blog.
1~ make goals
2~ measure self

So by Monday I will post on my new goals & my measurments!

Tonight I realized my son is ashamed of me...

I know he loves me dearly, there is no doubt about that. And to be honest in all the 4 years of his life I have been heavy, and never had he made a remark or avoided me or anything. But tonight while I was going thru youtube videos of people whom had done WLS I came acroos this one of a lady which had a pix and she was like 420 lb then it showed her pix now and she's down to 250 or so and my son tells me "why don't you do that?" so I said do what and he says do that like her not be fat no more. OH MY!!! That totally broke my heart. I know he didn't mean it in a bad way at all. But still it hurt. So with that said starting now I am not having no more junk food, no soda, no fast food. T.I'm going to try to loose as much as I can before the surgery and then after the surgery keep to it and loose the rest.

For me...

For my health...

But most important...

for my kids!!!

What do you mean I have gall bladder stones????

So I went to have an Upper GI scan test done and an abdomen ultrasound. These are some of the things I need to have cleared for my lap band surgery.

First they did the abdomen ultrasound and let me tell you I hadn't felt any pain prior to this test, well today I was told I have gall bladder stones and since they told me that I have been in so much pain :( It must be all in my head kuz before knowing this I felt no pain at all. It was weird having the upper GI scan, first I had to drink this white liquid (barium) not the best taste I've ever had.

So for now I must really watch what I eat, hopefully the stones don't bother me at all before my surgery. I must not eat red meat, foods high in fat, no spicy food. oh wow what will I ever be able to eat???