Hello everyone :)

First of all I apologize for not really posting or commenting on your posts. I have been a busy bee now that the kiddos are out of school, plus we are moving this weekend so I have been busy packing, and last but not least I had been stressing the surgery!

I am feeling much better now, I am not as scared or stressed. I had my endoscopy today and was sedated for that so now that I have been under even though it was only for like 15 minutes I am not stressing so much the surgery day when I will be under for the surgery, now that I know what to expect waking up from it. Yes I know it is totally different as I was only sedated today and for the surgery I will be under anesthesia (spelling ?)

We left this morning at 7am and hit traffic so I was 1/2 late, which was no problem since the anesthesiologist was really really late. It was 12:15pm by the time they took me in. All I remember is the nurse putting a blue plastic thing in my mouth and next thing I know I'm waking up in the recovery area, it was 12:40pm. Wow! That was so quick!

My throat still feels a lil weird but all in all I am feeling great!

I start my liquid diet on Thursday, we will see how that goes. A few months ago when I was first thinking about this I was like if I go thru with it the last few weeks I am going to pig out and eat everything in site, and honestly all this past week I haven't even been craving anything. Today since I went over there it was 4pm and I still hadn't had nothing to eat and I wasn't even hungry, so hubby asked me what I wanted to eat,where I wanted to go eat, and I told him take me home I will have some re fried beans. SHOCKER!!! He thought I would want to go to my fav place and eat there since I probably won't be able to eat that ever again. But no I am ready for my change.

Hope everyone is doing great! Once again thank you all for sharing your stories with us.

10 days 14 hrs 23 minutes....

10 days 14 hrs & 23 minutes till my surgery, but who's counting right!

Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I am so excited about the new journey I will be ennbracing, but at the same time I am so scared of the surgery!

Like honestly all of you that have already had the surgery & the ones that are in the process of it, did you, do you think of the what if's?

At times I get so scared that I will die in the surgery, it's a feeling that really makes me nervous, makes me really scared! At night when I am putting my kids to sleep I hug them & kiss them goodnight and it comes to my mind that I might not be here soon to keep on doing that !

I don't wanna get that feeling. I don't wanna be scared!

I am 292 lbs, but other than that I am healthy. No diabetes, no high blood pressure, no cholesteral no nothing. I know there some ppl that have the surgery and they have co mortalaties and they come out great from the surgery. So why do I get so scared when I know that I am a healthy person, a healthy morbably obeses person that is.

Please let me know if anyt of you went thru this before your surgery.

Is it normal???