2 weeks post op....

So today finally is my 2 week post op and you know what that means....

MUSHIES!!!!

Yay! I was so tired of the broths, juices, jellos, and mainly the protein shakes. Even though there is one drink I totally love, it's called muscle milk & the flavor is Banana creme.

I had some tuna today just plain out of the can with lemon lol. I really need some ideas as to what mushie food you all ate so I know what I am able to eat & stuff.

On another subject, I started school last week so I've been busy with that. I didn't finish high school so I signed up for my GED and started last week. Good things are comming my way :) All these changes in my life, everything is falling in place. I had to write an essay yesterday at school to see where I am at with my writting, and well as you all have noticed. I suck at writting, so please bear with me. Hopefully now that I am back at school I will learn how to write & make it interesting but most important make sense. :)

So as off today day 14 of my surgery I have lost 21.6 lbs. Woo who!!! Loving it! I really need to get all my water in, that is where I am struggleling. I have never been a water drinker.

Well my dears this is all for today. You all have a good night!

Why are some people so negative & rude!!!

So I have unpacked more boxes and was able to find the wires needed to get my computer going, now I will be able to read all the blogs I am behind on and blog about my journey!

Let me start of by telling you all about a call I got today that really got me upset. I hadn't really told a lot of people about my surgery not because I was ashamed but because I really felt no need to let all my family now. A few weeks ago we made a trip up north to visit family and I did mention it to my sisters, they were all very supportive of me. I didn't tell the cousins just because I didn't want to go all in details about it since we were all enjoying the reunion.

So I get a call today from my cousin Tony and this is more or less how it went:
Tony: Hey Kuz'n you guys coming over this weekend? (Grandparents came to visit from Mex)
Me: no we won't be going I just had surgery and didn't feel like making the 5 hr drive.
Tony:oh yeah I heard you were going to get the band how are you feeling?
Me: I am feeling great I've lost 17 lbs already
Tony: So what happened kuz'n you to lazy to work out that you couldn't do it on your own

That was a real slap in the face! I don't remember exactly what I told him or how, but I do remember saying that I had to do what I knew was best for me & my family and that I know people are going to judge me but that I didn't care as the only people that mattered where my husband and my kids. I do remember telling him that if he can loose the weight on his own by doing excerise that I was proud of him for him to do it. (He's a big guy so he was NO reason why je should judge me!)
After I hanged up I was in tears. How can anyone be so cruel, who is he to think he can judge me!
This is why I really didn't wanna say anything to them up there! They are my family but I know how they are they are always talking about anyone & everyone.


On a better note I went to my post op today & my Doctor says all looks well. I go in 3 weeks for my 1st adjustment. I am feeling great. Didn't get any gas pain, just a lil pain on my port insicion. Oh the day after surgery my throath did hurt a lot. I had a hiatel hernia repaired so they say they had 2 tubes going down my throat. That explains the pain.

On much better news I am down 17.8lbs. :)

(5 of 5) which one you all have and why that one opossed to the other one?

(4 of 5) of known about both so I could of known which one before hand. Needless to say I went with the realize. Can I get an input from all of you guys on

(3 of 5) only warm drinks till Monday. Now all along I had been researching the Lap Band and wasn't aware about the Realize band until yesterday. I wish I would

(2 of 5) couch kuz the bed was not comfortable at all. I'm in a lil pain and kinda uncomfortable. But it is doable. I'm really craving a cold drink but was told

(1 of 5) Ok bear with me I'm sending this on my phone and I'm still not used to doing it this way. We got home last night about 9pm and I had to sleep on my

Good Morning to all. So finally I am on the other side :-)

I've lost my 1st 10 lbs

My unspoken goal was to have lost atleast 10lbs before my surgery. Yay for me, I did it. My surgery is in 24 hours. WOW only 24 hours left and I will be part of the banded community :)

BYOC better late than never :)

Moved this weekend so I had na access to my comp sinec I haven't finished unpacking! So here I go....

BYOC is 5 little questions – some funny, some serious – that we answer to get to know each other better and it’s a free blog topic for Fridays when our blog brains are fried before the weekend! Feel free to join us! Post the questions and answers in your own blog!

1. Seeing that it’s a patriotic holiday of sorts I thought of this one: Where were you on September 11th?•

I was at home getting ready for work when I turned on my TV and saw what had just happened. My boss was supposed to fly that morning from LAX to Denver, so I got really worried for him since I still didn't know what was really going on.

2. What is your idea of fun? If given the chance to skip work/life for an entire day, what would you do? (assume you’d be by yourself)•

We just moved this past weekend so I am so tired, that if I could I would just stay home & sleep all day long. :)

3. Suggestion from a follower. Some blog questions. How many blogs do you follow? I follow 41! Do you read them all or just your faves? I started reading one by one from beggining to end, so far it's 6 that I have read that way. That my dear friends is why I really don't comment on the daily ones, kuz I am reading one persons at a time. I thought this was the best way to go, but then maybe not so, since I don;t end up reading the newest posts of everyone else. And then with this move I am soooo behind on everything. So now what I will try to do is read the current blogs and the little by little read one at a time but make sure I am up to date on everyone. So you all don't think I am not worthy of being followed since I don't comment you all! I will get to you soon. Pinky promise. :)

Do you comment a little, a lot, on all? I do try to comment on the ones I read to let them know that I was there, I leave my mark lol. Have you ever unfollowed someone because of something they said or you didn’t like their blog? Nope, haven't had a reason to. Do you routinely unfollow and why? Diddo to the last answer.

4. Repeat question. Pick one day and one healthy thing you’ll do for just that day next week.

Being that I have been stuck at home the long weekend, no time to exercise, no walking no nada, I will go for a 30 minute walk tomorrow, the day before my surgery. YAY so excited about that.

.5. Repeat "Make someone a superstar" question. Whose blog or blog comment stuck with you this week and why?

I gotta say each and every single blog that I have read here. A few weeks ago I was so scared about my surgery, and thanks to being able to read everyones progress, & struggles, see the before & after pix, learning how to go about the process thru all of you that have had it done already. All of you are my SUPERSTARS!

Special thanx to Fiona, Carmen, Miss Tori, Meli, Summer, Grace, River, & Amandakiska for the encouraging while I am going thru this ugh liquid diet!

I am still here.....

hello everyone! Sorry I haven't posted. We are moving this weekend and I have yet to unpack and put up my comp. I just realized now that I could actually post from my phone :-) so just a quick post to let you all know that I am still here. It sucks moving while being on a liquid diet : / I have no energy to unpack or do anything else. On a better note only 4 more days till my surgery. Woo who! So far I am down 7 lbs 4 of those since Thurs when I started the liquid diet.

Ready for my preop liquid diet :)

So this is it! As of tomorrow I am only allowed to have liquids, I was told that I could have protein shakes, juices, water, soups (just the liquid), & broth.

I forgot to ask them if I have to be under x amount of calories, or how much protein per day.

How was your liquid diets? What did it consist of?

Since last Thursday I have been only having one meal a day & drinking protein shakes, water & isopure the rest of the day. I am actually shocked that I have been able to maintain that with only one meal, as I am usually a very very hungry girl :).

I have been drinking the Kellogg's strawberry protein shakes, they are yummy! I also drink the carnation breakfast powder ones blended with a banana.

I need ideas so I don't get bored of the same ones. I ordered a couple of samples of the chikes? I think that is what they are called, we are moving so I packed them already so I can't check on the name.

Only one more week till the surgery! I am so excited!

Hello everyone :)

First of all I apologize for not really posting or commenting on your posts. I have been a busy bee now that the kiddos are out of school, plus we are moving this weekend so I have been busy packing, and last but not least I had been stressing the surgery!

I am feeling much better now, I am not as scared or stressed. I had my endoscopy today and was sedated for that so now that I have been under even though it was only for like 15 minutes I am not stressing so much the surgery day when I will be under for the surgery, now that I know what to expect waking up from it. Yes I know it is totally different as I was only sedated today and for the surgery I will be under anesthesia (spelling ?)

We left this morning at 7am and hit traffic so I was 1/2 late, which was no problem since the anesthesiologist was really really late. It was 12:15pm by the time they took me in. All I remember is the nurse putting a blue plastic thing in my mouth and next thing I know I'm waking up in the recovery area, it was 12:40pm. Wow! That was so quick!

My throat still feels a lil weird but all in all I am feeling great!

I start my liquid diet on Thursday, we will see how that goes. A few months ago when I was first thinking about this I was like if I go thru with it the last few weeks I am going to pig out and eat everything in site, and honestly all this past week I haven't even been craving anything. Today since I went over there it was 4pm and I still hadn't had nothing to eat and I wasn't even hungry, so hubby asked me what I wanted to eat,where I wanted to go eat, and I told him take me home I will have some re fried beans. SHOCKER!!! He thought I would want to go to my fav place and eat there since I probably won't be able to eat that ever again. But no I am ready for my change.

Hope everyone is doing great! Once again thank you all for sharing your stories with us.

10 days 14 hrs 23 minutes....

10 days 14 hrs & 23 minutes till my surgery, but who's counting right!

Aghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! I am so excited about the new journey I will be ennbracing, but at the same time I am so scared of the surgery!

Like honestly all of you that have already had the surgery & the ones that are in the process of it, did you, do you think of the what if's?

At times I get so scared that I will die in the surgery, it's a feeling that really makes me nervous, makes me really scared! At night when I am putting my kids to sleep I hug them & kiss them goodnight and it comes to my mind that I might not be here soon to keep on doing that !

I don't wanna get that feeling. I don't wanna be scared!

I am 292 lbs, but other than that I am healthy. No diabetes, no high blood pressure, no cholesteral no nothing. I know there some ppl that have the surgery and they have co mortalaties and they come out great from the surgery. So why do I get so scared when I know that I am a healthy person, a healthy morbably obeses person that is.

Please let me know if anyt of you went thru this before your surgery.

Is it normal???

I have a surgery date finally!

This morning I got a call from my doctors office letting me know I had been approved! YAY!!!

I am so mixed with all the emotions that are running thru me. I am so happy that I will start my journey, so scared of going thru bandster hell, so nervouis about the sedation. AGH! I just wish I could fast forward to like maybe 4 months from now.

On another note, we got together with some of the Fam Bam this weekend, and let me just tell you all that I would always tell ppl to only take pictures of me from my breast up so my fat wouldn't come out on the pix, and this time I didn't care. I took so many pix with all my fam full body shots so I can compare them next year when we get together again. Hehehe!

Here's a pix of my sisters & I! As you can see I am and have always been the biggest one in the family :( The 2 on the right have both had a tummy tuck and boobie job.

Martha 37 yrs. Me 34 yrs. Esther 39 yrs. Jenny 36 yrs.

Ah I almost forgot, I told my sisters abou the shaving powder I have read about on some posts & comments, and we went on a mission to Walgreens to look for it. All of us got some. :)

Update :)

So finally my old doctor's office sent my new docotor's office my file. Now the waiting starts, they sent in my info on Friday to my insurance BCBS to see about getting the approval. So far everything the insurance requires has been met. The only other thing that I need to have done, and I believe this is per the doctor not the insurance, or who knows lol. All I know is that on the 29th the doctor will be performing an endoscopy (spelling?) on me.

I had an upper GI done by the old doctor, not sure if it serves the same purpose or not. All I know is that I will be sedated, this my friends is what scares me! I know that obiously for the surgery I have to be sedated also, and it also freaks me out there. I have had 2 C sections, but I have been wide awake for those, so this will be my first time ever to be sedated.

Have any if you ever had this done? Please do tell how it was.

Please, please, please, do say a lil prayer for me that the insuramce approves me & I can hopefully have my surgery in the next couple of weeks.

Thank you!

New blogger

Hello everyone!
I just found a newbie here that would love more followers :)
She is in the process of getting banded next month.

Thank you!

http://lifeisbeautiful-forever.blogspot.com/

BYOC

BYOC - Bring Your Own Craziness...

It's Friday again - time for 5 teeny questions you can copy and paste into your own blog so we can all get to know each other better! Play if you want to!

1. If you could live anywhere in the world - where would it be and why?

If we had the money and where able to afford it, I would love for us to live in Carmel by the sea, from what I have seen it is beautiful there.

2. How old were you when you got drunk for the 1st time?

Hmmm well the time I did drink a lot to where I was sick to my stomach was about 2 months ago. I have drank before but had never gotten sick the way I did that day.

3. What was your favorite toy growing up?

My all time favorite was Strawberry Shortcake.

4. What's your favorite season and why?

My all time favorite is Spring, kuz that's when mine & my dads favorite flowers bloom. The Calla Lillies

5. Repeat question....which blog or comment spoke to you or stuck with you the most this week?

I was or more like still am reading Drazils blogs and I came across one that she wrote a while back, I don't rememeber which one it was. But it talked about ppl bein scared of what it will be like once we loose the weight or something of some sort.
And that is something that I have been thinking about all week, I have been overweight all of my life. I wonder how my life will be after I loose the weight. My husband even joked with me and said that if I get too skinny he will fatten me up. Well he said it in spanish it sounds more nicer in spanish hehe.

I am a slow reader...

Please do not Un follow me :)
I am halway thru finishing Drazil's blogs and found one where she says she unfollows ppl sometimes whom don't post or comment.

I am reading one by one each and everyones blogs, begining to end so it will take me time to get to each and everyone of you all.

So please don't think I am NOT interested in your blogs and delete me.

I will get to you all soon.

Yay for my new doc :)

Hello everyone! Happy Friday to all!
I am late on posting how my appointment went on Tues with the new doc I went to see.
His name is Dr. Feiz and he is with the Beverly Hills Physicians, but I didn't go thru them. I went to his private practice. If I would of gone thru the Beverly Hills Physician I would of been able to go to the office here in Oxnard which is only 10 - 15 minutes away from where I live. But I wanted to make sure he was the one to do my surgery so I went directly to his office in Beverly Hills.

So at first my appointment was @ 4:30pm, but since I didn't want to hit traffic on my way back home I switched it to 2:30pm. I really thought I would be home by like 5pm, since it's a 1 1/2 hr dr. I was really hoping I would not get traffic.

I had gotten his info off the internet, so that is where I got his address too. So there I go happy as can be, I park in the basement of the building for the address I got online. I check the board that shows all the bussiness there to see what floor he is in, and nothing. So I go up to the lobby & check there and I see he is on the 7the 7th floor suite 707. So up I go. The door to 707 shows his name so I go in, and I am told that he no longer is in that building! What it's 2:30pm exactly and I am at another place! UGH!!!!

So I call the offoce hopong they don't tell me they are like really far from there & thank God they are just 5 minutes away. So I drive to their now office I get there at 2:45pm. They have me sit and say they will be right with me.

At 4pm they finally call me in to weigh me. Then they tell me to go have a seat again.


At 4:30pm the doctor comes out & goes over the process with us, me & a man that was there. Then at 5:30 I finally get to talk to the doctor 1 on 1. I told him I was wondering about the bypass, and he went on to explin to me how they both where done, The pros & cons. So after all that I decided to stay with the lap band. :)

They are still waiting on my file from the other doctors office, as soon as they get that they will schedule me to do an endoscopy??? I think that is what they said. And then they will send in for the insurance approval. Let's hope they approve me right away!

So after all that I finally left the doctos office at 6pm! I wonder if my appointment would of been at 4:30pm what time I would of left there hehe!

Oh and I did get A LOT of traffic!

Other than the traffic everything was great! I really liked the doctor and his staff was great!

Oh another thing! I asked him if he would take out my gallbladder kuz of the stones & all (that is what the other Dr. planned on doing) and he said no, as long as it doesn't bother me why take it out.

What to do what to do....

Since the begining of the year when I first started thinking about WLS I have had set in my mind the lap band. So that is all I have researched, never did it cross my mind to even consider the gastric by pass, never until today.
We went to a friends party today & I mentioned to her I was in the process of getting banded soon. She told me about her sister in law whom I know, and even though I had noticed she (the sil) had lost a lot of weight it didn't even cross my mind that she had had any surgery done. I come to find out she had the gastric done. She has lost a lot of weight and as a matter of fact just recently had a baby & right after the baby she was able to loose all the weight.
So now that I know someone personaly that has had it done I am interested in finding out more about it and seeing if that is for me. Since all I have been researching is the lap band that is mostly all I haqve seen as far as blogs & vlogs.
Has anyone had the bypass?
And the ones with the band... what made you decide to do the band instead of the bypass?
I really need some imput please.

Good news on the new doctor!

So you have probably heard about Beverly Hills Physicians for the lapband. Atleast here in So Cali it's on all the radios. I went to their website and was reading about the different physicians they have, so I went on lapbandtalk.com and searched for a couple of them, and on one of them Dr. Feiz there's quite a few ppl that have gone thru him, even though theres also one patient who ended up having to have taken it out due to an infection, she still raves about how great he is. I am in the process of reading all of her blogs but am not done yet, as far as I know she was able to get it back a couple of months after that & she is doing great. I am not scared about that happening kuz that is something that can happen to anyone and stuff. I have read a lot of great reviews about him.
So I called his private practicem even though thru Beverly Hills I would only have to drive like 15 minuteds to theirOxnard facility, I would rather make the 2 hrs drive to Beverly Hills and see him at his private practice.
SO the good news is that with them I don't have to pay any out of pocket! YAY!!!
The only set back will be the drive but hey I would drive even farter to not have to pay all that money that I would of had too with this other doc.
Since I have already had everything done other than the dietician I am hoping that this goes by fast and that I am able to be a June bander :).
On Friday I have my dietician consultation, and I already signed the release form to have my file transferd to them.
I am so excited!

Thank you all for the prayers!

So frustrated!!!!

Aghhhhhhhhhhh!!!!!
So after all the test I've had already, all the clearences I've gotten. I was really hoping for a June surgery, and today I find out that I actually need $3,900 before the surgery date not $3,000. It was bad enough I was stressing over the 3 grand, and now it's almost 1 more. That right there is for the after care, and it must be payed upfront. AND not only that but I still have to pay a copayment of like $3000, so all in all I need $7,900 to do it. I know some ppl have actually paid upfront all of it. But I we don't have that money. So all my dreams and hopes are slowly fading away. I have been taking so much time off work to do all these test, for a surgery I might not have any more. Loosing all thos hours of work, to not be able to get it done because I don't have the money for it. That's just not right. :(

I have been online all evening researching another doctor about 2 hrs away from where I live, I will be calling his office tomorrow to see what my copay or other charges would be with him. Hopefully it is way less and he is able to get all my files from the other doc and we can go thru him.

So frustrated!!!
Pleasew say a lil prayer for me that things work out at this new office.

Thank you all!

May 22, 2010

And this is me, same dress, hmmm I think about the same weight. But 2 1/2 years later, I should of been able to have lost some weight in those almost 3 yrs. But this was the last time I wore that dress, kuz this time I am going to loose weight and come next year, when I am a nina again I will be able to wear a nice dress. One that I will be able to buy from a store and NOT have to have made for me.

2007

Sorry I triued posting these pictures on my last blog, but it wouldn't let me.

This picture was taken Oct 2007.

YAY!!! So over the weekend I was blessed with more followers :)
Thank you all!!!

So this past weekend the hubby and I attended a X5 for our godaughter Jenny. We baptized her when she was 3 yrs old, as a matter of fact we baptized her and her youngest sister Jazmin that day. Since then we have been the godparents for her oldest sister Vanessa for her first communion 2 yrs ago, and next year we will be the ninos for her 3rd sister Cindy's first communion. We were her padrinos de Honor for her X5 this weekend, and next year we will be for Cindy and the year after for Jamzin. Their mother got together with this one guys who has a 5 yr old son, whom we baptized a few weeks ago. So we are ninos to all 5 of them now.

Ok so now you are probably like what does all thgis have to do with anything right hehe.

Ok well here it goes, all these years, all these times we've been their godparents every single time, I have been the big nina. ok ok I will say it, the fat nina :( Next October will be Cindy's X5 my goal is to be the skinny nina this time.

Well first off before that next May is my son's 1st Communion and I do hope I get to be the skinny mom for that too.

When I say all these years I've been the fat nina I so mean it. Example 3 years ago hubby & I came out on his cousins wedding and I wore a gold dress...
Fast forward to 3 yrs later (this X5 I'm talking about) and well being that the economy sucks at the moment I did not buy me a new dress for this occasion. I wore the same dress I did 3 years ago, and yes it fit me. So as you can see these last 3 years I've still been the fat nina!

It totally sucks!!!

I really do hope I get the band soon, I have been able to loose weight on my won all these years, but I can never keep it off. i gain what ever I lost and then some back.

Thank you Drazil!!

I am so excited :) As of now I have 11 followers YAY!!! A big thank you to Drazil! She posted my link on her blog :) Thank you so much!

I am following a lot of people, but still haven't been able to read all of them as I am going one by one and reading from their first post to the most recent one :)...

So please do not think I am not even going to your pages, I will get there soon. Trust me I am SO interested in reading all of your guys stories and folowwing all of your journeys.

BYOC

So after reading thru some blogs, not done with all of them yet. I see that on Friday's there's some questions asked for us to answer. So I just copyed them from another blog and here are my answers. (I do hope this is how it works, and not that O have to wait to be invited to join on this BYOC group)


1. If you had 3 wishes what would they be and why? (you can't wish for more wishes or money!)
1~ To be able to go back to last year when I had lost 47 lbs, so I could of done all that was possible to keep them off and NOT let them sneak back to me.
2~ To have started this lapband process a few years ago so I could be at my goal weight now.
3~ To have planed a better future years ago, and be able to have been homeowners now.


2. If you had all the money in the world and perfect circumstances - how many children would you have and what sex?

Right now we have 1 boy & 1 girl, if we were set money wise I would love to have 1 more of each.


3. Have you ever faked it? (Because I need to laugh...feel free to skip this one if it's too personal.)

nopes I am either in the mood and do it, or not in the mood and don't do it.


4. What movie character do you think you look like?

not a movie character but I have been told that I kinda resemble a mexican singer Jenni Rivera, when I had mi hair colored a shade of brown.


5. Repeat question. Which blog or comment spoke to you or stuck with you this week and why?
Barbara from My New Life Rules and her post::: SABOTAGE Why do we do this to ourselfs.

Food... the thing that should nourish us, becomes more of an instrument to console us, when we are happy, sad, stressed.. or whatever emotion we are not prepared to handle in life

That paragraph right there really got to me, beacause that is how I am, Food is my companion, as much as I say every morning, this will be the day that FOOD will NOT control me, and trust me I really do believe it every morning, but then I am no longer in control, my appetite takes control. I am so ready to change I really really do want to, and I will.

Sleep Study

So last night I had my sleep study done. I got to the clinic at 9:30pm, the technician was still working on his 9pm patient. So after he si done with him he goes to my room, which by the way was a very nice room. He explains to me how he's gonna put all kinds of wires on me & stuff. So he starts wiring me up, SO many wires on my head, a couple on my legs, and some on my collar bone. Seriously how I am supposed to sleep with all those wires on me? I really thought I was not going to be able to sleep.
Boy was I wrong hehe! I sure did sleep, I did wake up a lil after I had gone to sleep, as I do most night, out of breath and practically choking. BUT I guess it's not sleep apnea, kuz they never put the mask on me.
Next I have a mandatory Pre operative class on June 2, then the dietician on June 8, sleep study follow up June 29 and finally a meeting with my surgeon on July 1, and hopefully my surgery on July 5 or soon after.
I was hoping to get banded by the middle of June but as you can see my appointments are still far away :(

1st blog I completed reading

So I have this other blog fernandezmanzo.blogspot.com that I started a couple of years ago where I talk about some legal problems hubby & I were going thru. On that blog I started folowing people but never really went back to their begining to read from day one of they're blogs, therefor I reallyt didn't know much about them.
So I have decided that here I will take it a day at a time, a blog at a time, one by one and start from day 1 of theyre journey and read all about each and everyone of them here.
Even thouhg I have been adding a lot, I still haven't read the recent posts kuz I have been buzzy catching up on one by one.
So as of today I have read all of Jessica's story at: http://jaeworldizin.blogspot.com/

My next one will be her best friend Mary at :http://maryannchange.blogspot.com/

So soon enough I will have read the whole journey of everyone here. I do hope to leran a lot from each and everyone of you!

Test test and more tesr

I attended a mandatory class today for the surgery, the nurse talked to us about all the complications that could happen both with the lap band & the gastric, she talked about the gas, getting stuck, the band slipping & stuff, very informative.
There was this one girl there that had the band done a couple of years ago, but for some reason it didn't work on her. So she's getting the bypass done now.... that gets me scared. What if I am one of the ones that the band just doesn't work for me??? Very very scary.
After that I had my pshyc evaluation, then after that I had the sleep counsultation. Based on all the questions and stuff from there the doc thinks I have sleep apnea. So I will be having a sleep test done on Tues eve. I have to be there at 9:30pm and spend the night till about 6am the next day. We will see how that goes. I doubt I will be able to sleep knowing I am being watched hehe!
So now all I need is that sleeo study test, then I see the dietician on June 8, and I should be set from there. Oh one major thing hehe I still need to come up with my copayment which is $3,000 so once I have that too I will be ready.

On a roll...

Kids & I are doing great in trying to get healthy :) Today we decided that yes we can still go to Mc Donalds, BUT we will NOT have hamburgers nor fries. We will have salads :). I had told them that since tomorrow is Mother's day and it's my day so I get to choose were we go out to eat, that I choose Chuck E Cheeses, since I am a mother due to the fact that they were born. Therefor we are celebrating all of us kuz without them I wouldn't be a mom :)

So my son Julian says "But pizza makes us fat" Good boy :)
So I said "That's why we are having Salad"
They loved the idea.

On to other notes, my friend Leslie whom I met thru our other blogs is now following me here :) I just yesterday made it known that I have this other blog, so finally I get to write so other people can read me :) YAY!! I wasn't sure if I would make it known that I was here or even follow people. But I decided to follow so I can also be followed and thus this way get support from all my new friends I will be making, and the ones I already have.

Leslie gave me an idea, well ok I am stealing 2 ideas from her blog.
1~ make goals
2~ measure self

So by Monday I will post on my new goals & my measurments!

Tonight I realized my son is ashamed of me...

I know he loves me dearly, there is no doubt about that. And to be honest in all the 4 years of his life I have been heavy, and never had he made a remark or avoided me or anything. But tonight while I was going thru youtube videos of people whom had done WLS I came acroos this one of a lady which had a pix and she was like 420 lb then it showed her pix now and she's down to 250 or so and my son tells me "why don't you do that?" so I said do what and he says do that like her not be fat no more. OH MY!!! That totally broke my heart. I know he didn't mean it in a bad way at all. But still it hurt. So with that said starting now I am not having no more junk food, no soda, no fast food. T.I'm going to try to loose as much as I can before the surgery and then after the surgery keep to it and loose the rest.

For me...

For my health...

But most important...

for my kids!!!

What do you mean I have gall bladder stones????

So I went to have an Upper GI scan test done and an abdomen ultrasound. These are some of the things I need to have cleared for my lap band surgery.

First they did the abdomen ultrasound and let me tell you I hadn't felt any pain prior to this test, well today I was told I have gall bladder stones and since they told me that I have been in so much pain :( It must be all in my head kuz before knowing this I felt no pain at all. It was weird having the upper GI scan, first I had to drink this white liquid (barium) not the best taste I've ever had.

So for now I must really watch what I eat, hopefully the stones don't bother me at all before my surgery. I must not eat red meat, foods high in fat, no spicy food. oh wow what will I ever be able to eat???

April 30,2010

290.2

1st appointment

So today I finally went to my first appointment to Dr. Billy's office. I went to the seminar a couple of months ago but for some reason or another I hadn't had a chance to finally come out and see them.

First I got weighed in, then one of the nurses spoke with me and gave me lots of info, and walked me thru the process of what needs to be done before I can even get a surgery date.

I am going to need to have a echo stress test done, and lucky me I already have that scheduled for tomorrow with Dr. Guapo (Dr. Shaun Patel) My daughter calls him Dr. Guapo kuz he is so handsome :) So this is one test I can cross of my huge list hehe! The next step is to have an Upper GI Scan, and an abdominal ultrasound done. Then I have to go for a psych council & sleep council, and with the dietitian. Hopefully they can all see me soon.

So excited about this journey :)

April 17, 2010

Gris & Me

my 34th birthday!

April 1,2010

Tanya & I

Our PIQE graduation

Hubby's Birthday Dinner

Julissa~~~Julian~~~Isrrael~~~Coco

Griselda's Birthday

The trip that never was

Today Julissa and I would have flown to Mexico. Last month there was a sale on Volaris, flights were only 1 dollar plus tax. So I had gotten 2 tickets, one for Julissa & one for me to fly from Los Angeles to Guadalara. It was only going to be for 3 days. Last year we were going thru some legal stuff when I made a promise well a lot of them not only one to El Señor Del Monte, I promised him that if all went well I would go to his church and thank him personally. So that was the whole point of my trip. But since my little episode from last episode from a couple of weeks ago, hubby decided it was better if we didn't fly out. But I still owe my manda so hopefully we go soon.

I hate this feeling!

So I went to my doctor's appointment today, on my way there as soon as I got out of work and into my car I started panicking again, really really bad. I was driving to my doctors office but it was so so bad. I was so afraid that I was going to crash or something. By the time I got to the office I was in tears and really really bad. So my doctor says that it's panic attacks that I am getting. She gave me some pills kinda like xanac. They do help me out a lot. But I am still worried about what I feel when I get these attacks, not sure why I started getting them. For now I am putting the lap band on hold while I figure out what's going on with me.

Panic Attack

So I have come to the conclusion that it was not GERD what I had yesterday. As I have not had any spicy food today & I started to panic again. As I was leaving work today, as soon as I got in my car I started panicking, My chest started hurting again, I felt that air bubble again. It was so scary kuz all the way home I felt it. What is really going on with me? I have a doctor's appointment tomorrow with my regular doctor, we will see what she has to say about all this.

Scariest Day of my Life!!!

So a few day ago I went to Dr. Billy's seminar for the lap band. There he spoke of all the complications obese people can have. I was always so proud to say " As big as I am and have been for most of my life, I feel good. I have no diabetes, no cholesterol, no nada. I am as healthy as can be." Well..... that all changed yesterday. I started the day was any other day, got the kids ready took them to school, came to work had my breakfast (enchiladas de mole). Then around noon I started feeling heartburn, I never ever get heartburn. All day I felt it really really bad. Then when I was off I went to pick up Julian from the boys & girls club, and when I was driving home I started feeling like if my heart was going to come out. My chest started hurting really really bad, then I kept on feeling like a bubble of air coming up my throat like if it was going to choke me. I called my hubby and told him that we were on our way home and to please be ready, that I needed him to take me to the hospital ASAP. I really thought I was having a heart attack. As we were getting ready to get on the freeway I started to panic even more thinking what if I have a heart attack in the car while he is driving. So I told him to pull and I called 911.

The ambulance gets there like 10 minutes later (we would of gotten to the hospital faster). As soon as they get there I tell them "Help me I am having a heart attack" They are as calm as they can be, and connect me to all these kinds of machines. Meanwhile I am panicking even more kuz I see my kids and I don't wanna die. One of the paramedics asked me if I have ever had a panic attack & i was all like "Listen mister I am having a heart attack please do something to stop it." so they do an EKG on me and say No lady this is not a heart attack your heart looks normal. Good news right? Well if my heart is normal why the heck am I feeling like this???

So they take me to the hospital, and I get a chest xray done & blood work, all looks perfect. Dr. asked me how it started so I told him about the enchiladas & the heartburn so he says that what I have is GERD (Gastro Esophageal Reflux Disease) So he tells me no more spicy food. WHAT!!! I am Mexican hello! Food with out chile is NO FOOD!

But since I don't to ever feel like this again I must listen to him and not eat spicy food. Or not that much anyways :)

He gave me prilosec to take on a daily basis. We will see if that helps. :)

Seminar on Lap Band Surgery

Today I went to a seminar on the Lap Band procedure. There was mmm maybe about 50 of us there. Dr. Billy is the surgeon I decided to go to. I have heard a lot of good things about him, his staff, and the work he has done. He went into detail about the process, after care and all that you can expect. There was also 2 ladies there to tell us their experience. Very informative seminar!

I am so excited and ready to begin this journey!

January 22, 2010

Out to dinner for Maira's Birthday!

January 17, 2010

Griselda & I

We went to the Mass para El Señor Del Monte in Los Angeles.

Happy Birthday to my best Friend Maggie

Maggie my dear Maggie, thru thck and thin you have always been there for me.

Wether you approve of what I do or not

you are always by my side.

I love you so much amiga!!!

May God bless you with many many more to come.

New Year, New Me

Kelly Me

As with most people today the first of the year is the day to make new resolutions, This year will be the year I will finally loose the weight! Not sure how hehe but I will, either on my own or with the help from surgery, buy I definitely will.

As the year goes by I will be blogging about my struggle with weight loss, I also will be posting random pictures here and there to show how I will be changing. Primero Dios. Follow my journey, learn from my mistakes, and pray that I follow thru, and that next year I am a whole new me :)

Primero Dios!